Ballad of Bitter Ending

The lies, smiles, and sighs I combine

That drafted the web of my desire,

Spinning evil silk that make you up

To which all I can do is just admire,

amidst orgasmic pain from your device,

I woke up from all the opened flies and lies

I wasted my life on fleeting dreams.

Living a lie to the fullest time,

a modern zombie strapped on a high,

designing a life of grandiose wines

until the day you met your demise,

I woke up from all the opened flies and lies.

My veins, hard as rock, like a junkie,

From injecting your sweet words at me.

I knew there was something wrong, but I

Could not feel, could not touch, could not see,

so I had to be slapped by somebody wise,

I woke up from all the opened flies and lies.

I started breathing and stopped moaning

Because of my mother’s eyes and cried,

Of the countless nights and dethroning.

And I scream so hard in my mind,

Shaking off succubus and Jesus Christ

I woke up from all the opened flies and lies.

Because I'm Manic - Depressive

and today I choose to be Manic... hahaha.. (blame the hormones. friggin estrogen messing up my aesthetic sense)

Now I know why some people Hate Freshmen

Pisti ka na yawa na ABEO freshmen (?). I'll be watching you..bwahahaha..

actually, the whole gang will be.lol..

die die die!!

*epekto sa CASS Gen Ass. kapoy but fun nevertheless.. saksespol man dhai! viva!*

Thinking Out Loud

I'm graduating from college. I wonder how it feels to walk on that stage and receive your diploma. Better yet, how does life after college feel?

I feel like I've been waiting for this moment my entire life. And shiver mi timbers! Arrr! I don't want to go to law school immediately. Something my dad has been bugging me since I was like.. uh.. elementary? I can't imagine receiving my diploma and the next day i'm back to school enrolling for Law. O_o

Don't get me wrong, I love working in the legal office it's just.. I want to rest. I haven't had a summer vacation ever since I entered college. I've been taking courses outside my course curriculum. I've never typed "exhausted" so fast in my entire life.

I don't want to move to Manila just for law. There are just too...many...pink...things. X_x overpass, comfort rooms, etc. Somebody should gang bang (eww graphic.haha) the MMDA for this. And the traffic... sheesh..

I just realized I'm scared of graduating because of these future plans.

Somebody say something quick! *panic*

Why I'm never buying Del Monte Pineapples Ever again.

This is a head shot of the ill - fated MV Princess of Stars. Sulpicio Lines sunken ship proved to be more of a bad luck than ever. Just today, the news of a deadly pesticide named "Endosulfan" was reported to have been carried by this ship and is now in peril of breaking out into the sea. About 10 tons or 10, 000 kg is located in the cargo area and is only held together by a "normal" metal shipping cargo. Scientists report that even 10 mg or roughly about the size of a capsule could instantly kill an adult in just a few minutes. To that effect, the Department of Health issued a warning not to eat sea food products that were taken out of the region for precautionary measures. That is how deadly this substance is and to think that this is being used by DEL MONTE CORPORATION, Cagayan de Oro City.

Del Monte Corp. responded that they did in fact appointed this shipment to another ship and did not know that it was transferred to the capsized Princess of Stars therefore they shouldn't be blamed for such leakage.

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Putang Ina! That doesn't make a whole lot difference! Even if they used freight cargo's or submarines it doesn't change the fact that they are using this stuff as pesticides for their pineapples! What's worse and to be expected in this red tape of Phil. administration is that they probably won't be able to sue a lot against a Multinational Corporation like Del Monte. They'd probably just poke them a little here and there then leave them alone because our conscience and morality can just be bought.

A domino effect has been tinkered with because of the DOH's warning. The fisherfolks and market vendors are also suffering because they suddenly don't have anything to sell now that the people are also scared of buying seafood.

I could only hope we could all learn something from this tragedy. Sulpicio Lines, take responsibility.. and Del Monte, you suck! Big time. I'm switching to DOLE.

YOU SHOULD TOO!

Stupid Things

We all do stupid things once in a while.. o..k... maybe more often than not, we do a lot of stupid things. Things that made you wish that you had the power to turn back time or better yet morph yourself into a tiny worthless piece of toilet paper ready to be used by diarrhea - stricken fat guy (I know, graphic)..

Unfortunately I am not endowed with that kind of special power. I can't morph, transform, or even make myself invisible for even half a second. Therefore, I face the consequences of those things. Stupid things.

When it comes to relationships I know, I made a lot of those. Hell, I could feed Ethiopia if the list could only be converted to food. Sometimes, I pray so hard to God to just convert those things into something else. Something less painful. To me, or to others..

What I hate most about stupid things are the ones that you are aware that you are about to commit. It's like one of those epiphanic moments where the cloud suddenly parts and a ray of light shines through with the dove flying above your head. Only, you still do it. Stupid you. Stupid me.

I ask myself and side street vendors and taong grasa’ why I still do those things even if I know it is really stupid. Or why I let stupid things happen. Does that mean I'm even stupid-ier than I thought I was?

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Just this night, I heard "Desiderata" being sung on the radio. The taxi driver apparently did not show any sympathy for me and myohmygodicommitedanotherstupidthingmoment. I tried to block the lyrics out of my head even if I memorized Desiderata.. Then came the climax, the driver changed the station and it went "All my bags are packed I'm ready to go.. I'm standing here outside your door. I hate to wake you up and say goodbye..." and I just couldn't help it.. I laughed. I laughed like hell at the backseat of that taxi.

It's like all my questions have suddenly been answered. All because the taxi driver changed stations.
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I'm sorry for the stupid things I've done and for letting them happen...
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They say, God is a great comedian created for an audience that were just afraid to laugh..
Well God, that certainly made my day...

My School is Cheating on Me

Ah yes.. June. The unholiest month of the year. The month where mothers clench tightly on their purses. The month where freshmeats..err.. freshmen students show off their new "cooler" status in life. The month where I shall start to be in my senior year.

Even if I still enjoy bumming around the house I am actually very excited for classes to start. Especially that this year, is a special one.. I'm graduating!!!!!!! *cartwheel* and I was pretty excited to get myself enrolled until I saw a new entry to the tuition assessment form..

Internet Fee...................................... P100

me: oh, that's new. I wonder why they didn't inform us much earlier of that. We must have new computers *smiling with glee*

me, after a few hours: Wait.. That's not right.. Where are the new computers? The gizmoos? The "world - class vision thingy?"

me, after a little more thinking: Huh?? So this fee is for the Wi - fi connections installed in SOME parts of the school?

me, now: WHAT THE....... Wi - fi Internet Fee?!?! But the student's don't even have laptops for crying out loud!!!


I do understand that P100 is a small fee nowadays for such a service, but if you think about it we're paying for something that we do not even have access to. It's just unfair and just another shot at making our mothers cringe for their purse. Moreover, if you multiply 200 bucks (for the whole schoolyear) and the number of students in the school that would be equal to 600k! To think that I haven't even enjoyed my varsity status yet because of the red tape! Arrgh.. This makes me want to rethink about my being senior. I know we'll be in deep sh*t when graduation time comes. I could only imagine what they could think of next *cringes*

Bloggers Unite! - Blogging for Hope

Today, May 15 2008 Marks Amnesty's Bloggers Unite campaign. It is a movement wherein millions of bloggers who signed up is writing the same thoughts at the same day. It hopes to achieve attention and more awareness to the pressing human rights violation issues that needs action. One of these issues is the call for the release of Shi Tao and other prisoners in China.

As you may all know, Beijing Olympics is fast approaching (August to be exact). Everyone is happy, everyone is on panic buying for fan t-shirts and banners, everyone getting ready to chant their team's song. And yet how many of the them... how many of us... know what is really happening in China. To better understand how this issues aroused interest in connection with Beijing Olympics you have to be aware how China got to host the Olympics in the first place. Being a host country for such a prestigious event doesn't just mean that you are seriously committed to sports it also means an avenue for a very lucrative opportunity both economically and politically. Initially, a lot of objections were raised on China's moral ascendancy to host the games. After all, the Olympics is suppose to be the avenue where we wield camaraderie and cooperation from different nations. Those and other principles where in direct contradiction with China's human rights records. They promised to improve those records, that is why we now have Beijing Olympics

But what's happening now?

There are still several prisoners of conscience that China holds on to. Shi Tao for example who is a journalist and wrote to an international organization via internet, the kind of system China has. There was no intention for rebellion or whatsoever. He was after all a journalist. Now, he is imprisoned. There are still several people who have stories like this. Ironic to think that in this day and age the internet is being hailed as the ultimate source of information. In China you can get imprisoned for being "too much informed" especially on things like democracy, press freedom, human rights.

Yahoo! Don't Violate Human Rights

Unfortunately, even companies are not spared from violating human rights. Yahoo gave the Chinese government what was supposedly private information from an individual. Yes, they spilled out private information which led to the 10 year imprisonment of Shi Tao without just trial and investigation. That means Yahoo infringed his right to privacy and sold out Shi Tao!
Imagine what a company could do to common people like us. You could be the next (or me O_O)

Let's take action for Shi Tao and other prisoners. End internet censorship! Everyone has the right to information.

Let's not forget Shi Tao and others who's only sin was exercising their human rights!


Help Shi Tao. Click Me!

A Response to the Vicente Sotto Memorial Scandal

You will not see the video in this blog. I have no plans of searching for it either. I don't want to and you can't make me. I find it unnecessary to put it here anyways, the video has turned around a lot of heads already so you virtually have to be living under a rock if you don't know about it.
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The video contains the surgery of a 39 year old man in operation room in Vicente Sotto Memorial Hospital, Cebu City. A couple of doctors, nurses and some student interns were laughing and giggling amidst the operation - pulling out a 6 inch canister from the anus of a man. When the doctor finally pulled it out, he shouted "Baby out" and again the operating room was filled with laughter. The nurse then started spraying the can to other nurses who was evidently enjoying every moment of it. A few days later the video was uploaded to youtube, passed on email to email, and yes you can even find it in your local piracy stores.
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The medical profession in the Philippines has long been under scrutiny. We have had a number of stereotyped images and lines (remember the "Desperate Housewives" episode?) referring to Filipino doctors and nurses. To top it off, we now have a new scandal - another cherry to our sick-flavored sundae. What I could not and never will understand is why the doctors/nurses spent all their money going to med school only to end up as intelligent morons. The video shown was a clear breach of the privacy act wherein the patient's integrity and life should strictly be protected.

I wonder how they would feel if their husband's/wife's false teeth got stuck in their penis/vagina and the operation was uploaded in youtube??? (O_O)

What I also do not understand is how the Philippine Medical Association is still "deliberating" whether the license of the people involed should be revoked. When interviewed by ABS - CBN they reasoned that this was an isolated case and such punishment would strongly affect medical tourism in the Philippines.

By not punishing these individuals in the utmost terms they are implying that they are tolerating such cases even if it was isolated. Medical tourism in the Philippines has already been hurt when they posted the video on the internet and not because of the punishment given to the people involved.

Lastly, what I heard from others is that the patient is to be blamed in the end because he engaged himself in homosexual conduct. That he is the catalyst also for the misconduct of the doctors

Whoever made comments such as these seriously has to read human rights modules. All laws should protect the life and dignity of the person regardless of race, age, or sexual orientation. All should be provided with equal care and respect as members of the human race. Lesbian, Gays, Transgenders, Bisexuals are still human beings. They bleed too when you poke them.

Hindi nalang sana sila nag doktor. Sana naging Direktor nalang sila

The Summer of my Life

I went to the beautiful city of ZAMBOANGA! and I just really have to say that learning Chavacano (local language) is a real challenge and treat! Chavacano is a pidgmin language of Spanish brought about by their stay here in the Philippines for 300 years

Going back, the city boasts delicious seafoods! and when I say delicious I mean exquisite shrimps, giant crabs, fresh fish and shells! I could not get enough of the food! hehehe.. And with great food comes a great beach.. well actually island. Just off the coast of Zamboanga is a small island named STA. CRUZ.. and did I mention this was a pink beach? The sand is pink!! Something which I believed should be posted in either Ripley's believe it or not, or Guinness World of Records. The sand is pink due to the corals that surround the island. The tidbits of coral structure float across the sea and unto the sand which makes it gleam in the sun.. I was never a fan of the color pink but Sta. Cruz totally changed my mind. Hani and Jason, my best pals in Zamboanga accompanied me to the island and it was virtually all ours for the taking because the local government didn't have enough resources yet to cultivate it to become a tourist spot (but I totally agree that it's a good thing.hehe)


Zamboanga, is a great place that everybody should visit whenever they can! Great food, great beach, and of course great people! =)

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