Thinking Out Loud

I'm graduating from college. I wonder how it feels to walk on that stage and receive your diploma. Better yet, how does life after college feel?

I feel like I've been waiting for this moment my entire life. And shiver mi timbers! Arrr! I don't want to go to law school immediately. Something my dad has been bugging me since I was like.. uh.. elementary? I can't imagine receiving my diploma and the next day i'm back to school enrolling for Law. O_o

Don't get me wrong, I love working in the legal office it's just.. I want to rest. I haven't had a summer vacation ever since I entered college. I've been taking courses outside my course curriculum. I've never typed "exhausted" so fast in my entire life.

I don't want to move to Manila just for law. There are just too...many...pink...things. X_x overpass, comfort rooms, etc. Somebody should gang bang (eww graphic.haha) the MMDA for this. And the traffic... sheesh..

I just realized I'm scared of graduating because of these future plans.

Somebody say something quick! *panic*

Why I'm never buying Del Monte Pineapples Ever again.

This is a head shot of the ill - fated MV Princess of Stars. Sulpicio Lines sunken ship proved to be more of a bad luck than ever. Just today, the news of a deadly pesticide named "Endosulfan" was reported to have been carried by this ship and is now in peril of breaking out into the sea. About 10 tons or 10, 000 kg is located in the cargo area and is only held together by a "normal" metal shipping cargo. Scientists report that even 10 mg or roughly about the size of a capsule could instantly kill an adult in just a few minutes. To that effect, the Department of Health issued a warning not to eat sea food products that were taken out of the region for precautionary measures. That is how deadly this substance is and to think that this is being used by DEL MONTE CORPORATION, Cagayan de Oro City.

Del Monte Corp. responded that they did in fact appointed this shipment to another ship and did not know that it was transferred to the capsized Princess of Stars therefore they shouldn't be blamed for such leakage.

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Putang Ina! That doesn't make a whole lot difference! Even if they used freight cargo's or submarines it doesn't change the fact that they are using this stuff as pesticides for their pineapples! What's worse and to be expected in this red tape of Phil. administration is that they probably won't be able to sue a lot against a Multinational Corporation like Del Monte. They'd probably just poke them a little here and there then leave them alone because our conscience and morality can just be bought.

A domino effect has been tinkered with because of the DOH's warning. The fisherfolks and market vendors are also suffering because they suddenly don't have anything to sell now that the people are also scared of buying seafood.

I could only hope we could all learn something from this tragedy. Sulpicio Lines, take responsibility.. and Del Monte, you suck! Big time. I'm switching to DOLE.

YOU SHOULD TOO!

I Never Get Tired of Seeing This

As the great Jedi Reston said.. "Praise the worldwideweb!"

A Tribute to Ma'am Christine

Datu Bantay at Starbucks
By Christine F. Godinez-Ortega

Starbucks at Robinson's
the round table and mock wrought-iron chairs
transport Linda and I to my Lola's veranda
over two cups of Ethiopian blend:
black, expensive.

The tiled floor isn't as cold as the
table setting—white man's ruse.
Flourescent lamps, not the sun, light this mall
where shadows of water
dance on plastic leaves.

Linda and I taste, think Ethiopian.
'round the glass sphere
colors fill its edges, the young
embracing mannequin's sneers.
We agree to grieve if styrofoam unicorns
racing above us would fall on
someone's head as we nod our own
keeping time with Madonna.

Our thoughts drift, spiral
with the sweet aroma, the hot liquid
spinning another galaxy—
Datu Bantay chasing his ancestors'
horses in the clouds
above the washed-out feeder roads.

The mayor chews on Datu Bantay's
red and gold tubaw*
as Li Gandingan** charges the air
where Datu Bantay's prayers
are splattered on the wall—
the tribe's coffee harvest
sits by the roadside in the hills.

We sip the dark opium warily
under loosed flourescent light
through foggy glasses barely,
Datu Bantay among the curlicues
of wallpaper.

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I am so lucky to have been a student under Prof. Christine Godinez - Ortega. She reminds me of all that's great and holy in this world. Even her husband reminds me of literature (Zeus). I am absolutely one of those who would border on obsessive - stalker - fanatic syndrome over a person who I choose to adore. And since I usually have high standards for these things, Ma'am Christine is one of the few people that tops the list. I am absolutely in awe and in love with this powerful and intelligent woman. Her words, her voice, her brain, and not to mention her expensive bags and pieces of jewelry makes me mad. I don't have much role models in my life and her entering in my life as one of the most supportive educators I have ever known makes me feel honored. I feel so honored and blessed that I could kiss the floor she walks upon (see? I am THAT obsessed) I'm just so upset now that she does not handle any of my literature class. I'm so upset that I think I'm going to get drunk over coffee and wish the memories of my melancholy whores slap me to sleep.

WTF

I thought I've seen everything. Until this came along:

http://www.brainbashers.com/chicken

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On another note, this site is quite cute. Personality-ish test. Too bad this is the result of mine (Disclaimer: The sex life part is erhmm.. let's just not talk about it, shall we?????~!?!?!)

Just follow the white piggy!

Stupid Things

We all do stupid things once in a while.. o..k... maybe more often than not, we do a lot of stupid things. Things that made you wish that you had the power to turn back time or better yet morph yourself into a tiny worthless piece of toilet paper ready to be used by diarrhea - stricken fat guy (I know, graphic)..

Unfortunately I am not endowed with that kind of special power. I can't morph, transform, or even make myself invisible for even half a second. Therefore, I face the consequences of those things. Stupid things.

When it comes to relationships I know, I made a lot of those. Hell, I could feed Ethiopia if the list could only be converted to food. Sometimes, I pray so hard to God to just convert those things into something else. Something less painful. To me, or to others..

What I hate most about stupid things are the ones that you are aware that you are about to commit. It's like one of those epiphanic moments where the cloud suddenly parts and a ray of light shines through with the dove flying above your head. Only, you still do it. Stupid you. Stupid me.

I ask myself and side street vendors and taong grasa’ why I still do those things even if I know it is really stupid. Or why I let stupid things happen. Does that mean I'm even stupid-ier than I thought I was?

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Just this night, I heard "Desiderata" being sung on the radio. The taxi driver apparently did not show any sympathy for me and myohmygodicommitedanotherstupidthingmoment. I tried to block the lyrics out of my head even if I memorized Desiderata.. Then came the climax, the driver changed the station and it went "All my bags are packed I'm ready to go.. I'm standing here outside your door. I hate to wake you up and say goodbye..." and I just couldn't help it.. I laughed. I laughed like hell at the backseat of that taxi.

It's like all my questions have suddenly been answered. All because the taxi driver changed stations.
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I'm sorry for the stupid things I've done and for letting them happen...
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They say, God is a great comedian created for an audience that were just afraid to laugh..
Well God, that certainly made my day...

My School is Cheating on Me

Ah yes.. June. The unholiest month of the year. The month where mothers clench tightly on their purses. The month where freshmeats..err.. freshmen students show off their new "cooler" status in life. The month where I shall start to be in my senior year.

Even if I still enjoy bumming around the house I am actually very excited for classes to start. Especially that this year, is a special one.. I'm graduating!!!!!!! *cartwheel* and I was pretty excited to get myself enrolled until I saw a new entry to the tuition assessment form..

Internet Fee...................................... P100

me: oh, that's new. I wonder why they didn't inform us much earlier of that. We must have new computers *smiling with glee*

me, after a few hours: Wait.. That's not right.. Where are the new computers? The gizmoos? The "world - class vision thingy?"

me, after a little more thinking: Huh?? So this fee is for the Wi - fi connections installed in SOME parts of the school?

me, now: WHAT THE....... Wi - fi Internet Fee?!?! But the student's don't even have laptops for crying out loud!!!


I do understand that P100 is a small fee nowadays for such a service, but if you think about it we're paying for something that we do not even have access to. It's just unfair and just another shot at making our mothers cringe for their purse. Moreover, if you multiply 200 bucks (for the whole schoolyear) and the number of students in the school that would be equal to 600k! To think that I haven't even enjoyed my varsity status yet because of the red tape! Arrgh.. This makes me want to rethink about my being senior. I know we'll be in deep sh*t when graduation time comes. I could only imagine what they could think of next *cringes*